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THE KNOT OF TRUTH

"You learned to hide your voice to keep the peace. To bite your tongue, shape-shift, or say nothing at all. And now… you’re not even sure what your truth sounds like anymore."

This knot is quiet—but deep.
It lives in your throat, your chest, your gut.
It forms when you learned—early on or painfully later—that truth had a cost.

That cost might’ve been conflict. Rejection. Punishment. Shame.
So you adjusted. You got good at reading the room.
You became the agreeable one. The peacekeeper. The chameleon.

But the longer you hide your truth, the further you drift from yourself.

This knot isn’t just about lying.
It’s about forgetting your own voice.


The Knot of Truth is woven from swallowed words, performative smiles, and the ache of self-betrayal.
It’s the internal censor that kicks in before you even know what you feel.
It’s the pause before honesty.
The rewrite before you speak.

It doesn’t always feel like fear.
Sometimes it feels like fog.
Like you’re disconnected from your instincts, unsure what’s real—or what’s yours.

This knot forms when you believe your truth is too much.
Too angry. Too weird. Too painful. Too loud.

So you silence yourself to survive.

​✦ What This Knot Looks Like

  • Saying what people want to hear instead of what you mean

  • Struggling to access your own opinions or needs

  • Fear of confrontation or “rocking the boat”

  • Feeling like you play a role in every room you enter

  • Regret after conversations where you stayed silent

  • Feeling emotionally muted, unsure what’s real inside

  • Chronic throat tension or trouble speaking your truth

  • Knowing what others feel—but unsure what you feel

This knot can look like kindness.
But often, it's just quiet self-erasure.

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✦ Where It Starts

Maybe you grew up in a household where only certain truths were allowed.
Maybe when you spoke up, you were shut down—or punished.
Maybe you learned that “keeping the peace” was safer than telling the truth.
Maybe trauma made you doubt your own memory or perception.

Or maybe your truth was gaslit so often, you started rewriting it yourself.

Your system adapted.
It hid your voice to keep you safe.
But now that safety has become a cage.

✦ Untying the Knot

This knot unties when you stop editing yourself to be palatable.

It unravels when you:

  • Speak your truth in small, safe spaces—even if it’s messy

  • Practice disagreeing gently but firmly

  • Stop apologizing for needing clarity

  • Begin journaling without censoring, just to hear your voice

  • Trust that your truth doesn’t need permission to exist

Untying this knot means coming home to your own resonance.
Not what sounds good—what rings true.

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When did I first learn to silence myself to keep others comfortable?

Where in my body do I feel my truth get stuck?

What would it sound like if I spoke from my gut instead of my fear?

Reflecting Prompt:
“If I trusted my voice, what would I say that I’ve never said out loud?”

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